So Pinnie!

So there is this wonderful little website called Pintrest. I have joined and found that it is like miniature blogging! How delightful!! 

Here is my page. 

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All my pining enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger

Living Well

I have always struggled with fear. It is a vice of mine. 

I would very much like to live a creative life, how about I work on loosing that fear first. 

All My Enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger

Children of an Idle Brain

Every year at the end of school I like to go through my notebooks and find all the doodles I did.  Turns out Government class is a very conducive doodling environment. Hee hee!

 He is a superhero!

 This is Burl. She is a recurring character in my doodles.

Anna Lee is friends with Burl. 

THis guy is a rail road tycoon! 

I ended up destroying public property by drawing this on my desk.  It stayed there for quite some time.

One of my favorites :)

I think the only thing pertaining to the government I was supposed to be writing about on this page is the word 'Government' at the top. The rest is arrows, berries, and handsome actors names. This page says much about my brain. 

This guy reminds me of The Martian Chronicles. 

Those were my favorite randoms found among my pages. 

All my daydreaming enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger

Those Doors Keep Opening

Today I was ruffling about in college preparations; figuring out student orientation and freaking out over tests, you know the usual. I have been thinking of college in the abstract, "Oh higher learning? Thats not tell next semester." 

I fail to realize that next semester is three months and a week away exactly. I will leave in three months. 

Leaving. 

Los Angeles is my city. I grew up here, learned here, got exposed and cultured and fashioned very well wandering through it's crazy places. I think it is an ugly faded old city but it's mine because of the people. The people are not faded.  I love my family and friends incredibly much! Leaving  them for a place I know no one is bloody terrifying.  

But whats more terrifying is my future that is trotting swiftly behind the act of leaving.  

My life will never be the same.

I like to think of this change like doors.  Up tell now my life has been like one of those really fun spinning doors they have at banks and fancy hotels.  Any big adventure I had I would go through the big spinning glass door which I could see my family on the other side of and then I could always come spinning back to them through the two way door. 

This college change is not a spinning glass door, it is one of those heavy thick doors that open from the inside but have no handle on the outside to get back in with. I'll push down on that silver handle and have to walk away once it closes behind me. 

But, you know, it's going to be good. 

i focus so much on what i am loosing that i forget what i will be gaining. 

Knowledge, Wisdom, experience, new friends, new interests, freedom, responsibility. All these i am looking forward to because the Lord has promised good to me. He has promised me a future and way in this world greater then any I could scrape out for myself. This is part of His plan for me, so I am willing. 

All my changing enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger

Swimming With Sculptures

 I found these beautiful photos on one of my many blog hunts. They are so stunning, almost like sculptures. They look like Micheal Angelo carved then from cold blocks of marble. 

I love them. 

Hope you enjoyed a swim with these statues.

All my enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger

A Few Moments

As I sit in my kitchen, watching my sister slowly decline in awake-ness as my mother tries to remember her facebook password, I am acutely aware of life. Quiet moments like this always inspire me to think nostalgic philosophical thoughts. Most turn out to not be that impressive, shall we see how this one turns out? I think yes. 

(me being happy about lat night blogging)

I am aware of life in regard to moments. 

Life is divided up into moments and we are allotted a certain number of them. These moments can be as short as one millisecond or as vast as a decade. Moments can happen within other moments. They can start on their own and end along with dozens of other moments. What I mean to say is, these moments of life are rather unpredictable.

On the day of each humans birth, in fact the very second of our first breath, we are handed a sub conscience notice that our moments have begun. We are not aware of these moments tell we are more or less in our pre-teen years(understand that age is relative, if you were aware of your moments long before the age of six or long after 52 I will not consider you weird). After this epiphany we don't do much with the knowledge until we have another epiphany(which equals a moment) that moments are important. 

That is where I find myself at in the present. Me writing this blog post is, in fact, a moment. Moments came to my attention while I was watching TV. Late at night, I realized I would have been better off sleeping rather then staring at a show I did not care about. My thought process took me along a winding trip with many detours(I made some new imaginary friends) until I came to the conclusion that I wanted to only spend my moments on what was worth my moments. 

I have always wanted a full life. What better way to achieve that then spending time on what is worth my while? 

 What is worth my while are the things I love. Drawing, friends, dancing, thinking, reading, sleeping(which I should be doing right now). Those are a few of my vast collection of delights I have. I want to spend my moments on things like those but I often find myself listlessly surfing facebook or... well, mostly facebook. 

So, down with listlessness! Down with passiveness! I want only the interesting, the uncommon and the passionate! Go Life!!


I am now alone in the kitchen. My mother and sister long been asleep, but I type away and hope that this blog post will be worth the moment you take to read it. Thanks for indulging my socratic thoughts. 

All my moment made enthusiasm, The Bursty Blogger. 

Girl In Progress

I hate being ignored.  

I wanted you to know this not because I want you to never ignore me, but so that maybe you could forgive me for it. 

I have always found it necessary to strive for a full exotic wild life so that people would be interested in me. Having everyone fall in love with me is not a bad idea in my opinion.  It's either love or bust for me.  

And I don't think 'everyone' means 'everyone in the entire world',  just everyone in my world.  I love the people in my world. I want so bad to make them happy, to simply be with them always. To know I have hurt them hurts me. It means their love is not justified, I have failed them.  
This is a very selfish thing to think. Who likes to be ignored? I am not unique because of this. 

Whats more, I know I am loved. 

You love me for who I am and what I do. I am not saying this because I want to brag but because it is the truth. I can think of many people that I can always be sure of loving me. But sometimes I look at the pieces of myself, like a clumsy bright sort of puzzle, and wonder why.

All I can think of saying is thank you. Thank you for grace. Thank you for forgiveness. Thank you so so much. 

I want you to know that those times when I say or do something that shows you just how broken I am, it is your love that puts me back together. I don't even care if that is cheesy. I know I will brake again and I am sorry for that.

 My sister says that we can always start over again tomorrow. I am sorry it can't just stay fixed, that we do sometimes have to start over. I am sorry for the times you are disappointed in me. I didn't mean it.

I am just a an insecure girl in progress. Thanks for loving that girl. She loves you back with immense loyalty. 

All my humbleness, The Bursty Blogger. 

P.S. Welcome back to Tallis In Wonderland :)